2:51 am Buenos Aires time zone

Indeed in the zone. DO NOT KNOW WHY I can’t get to sleep before 2am since I arrived here and I’m going for a record tonight, I mean this morning. It’s nearly 3 and I’m tempted to go out for dinner.

I’m reminded of a personal challenge I face. You see, I have balls of steel and often times I don’t think things through to the end, it helps me follow through with some of my craziest ideas. However, I am still a big chicken. For instance, I have a REALLY hard time booking a hotel sight unseen and confirming with a credit card. Anxiety. I have a difficult time planning for the future in general and I wait to the last minute to make a decision. Or if I do make a decision I dont actually notify anyone, including myself, until the last minute.

I can’t explain the mental-ness that invades my neuronic mind when I have too much time/space to do whatever I want, when I want, which is exactly what I want. I wish I could teleport DigDug to my cerebral mass to un-mass some earthen goo and clear my head. I’m drinking too much tea, its warm and i’m cold. And coke, its bigger here than in the states.

But somethings got to give. I am a total condundrum right now. In every way I am turned upside down inside out.

I’ve cried everyday since the day I left and I’m strangely ok despite the raw surreal-ness of my life. This is my life now, I don’t have a “home” to return to, no job to dread, no car to burn precious fossil fuels with. Only friends dearly missed.

Don’t cry for me Argentina.